It’s been a while since I’ve written. Well, that’s not true. I’ve been writing virtually every day, but right before I get to the end of my post, without fail, right before I hit the publish button, I lose everything I’ve just written. I mean it just vanishes into thin air. This morning I even saved my draft halfway through, but still lost the entire last half before I got to the end.
Computer error? User error? Probably both.
Frustration? You have no idea.
But I’m taking it as Jesus asking me nicely to give it a rest. To take a break for a while. To put my words aside for His words alone.
I’m not sure what that means in terms of time or direction. Blogging for the past nearly six years on an almost daily basis has become part of who I am and what I do. It has been both an outlet and an inner prompting from Jesus. It has been a way to think of specific people as I sit down to write – a reminder to pray for them. It has given me a chance to flesh out what I’ve been taking in each day – the lessons, the aha moments, the stark realizations and the sweet reminders from God’s word. It has served as a way to look back through these past years and see what God has done in and around me, what He has grown and what He has weeded out.
I can’t imagine that I’m done. It has become so ingrained. Every time I sit down and begin typing, I feel like I am right there with you all, pouring out a full heart. We will see. Maybe God is shaking things up a bit and has something else in mind.
So I might write here again tomorrow or next week or a month from now or never. I honestly don’t know. And that’s okay.
I only write this to let you in on my possible absence.
But, as always, you will be in my thoughts and prayers, my heart and mind. That Jesus would continue to woo your hearts toward His and that you would know “how long, how wide, how high and how deep” His love is for you. (Ephesians 3:18)
With a grateful and hopeful heart and for now,
Jana
