“Do you trust Me?”
That’s the question I hear this morning as I finish preparing for a “speaking” opportunity tonight.
But let’s be honest.
There are so many reasons that I am not qualified to do this:
1. I am not a speaker.
2. I am a stranger to probably the majority of these women.
3. These are a group of spiritually mature, vibrant women who have been meeting together for years. What could I possibly have to offer them?
4. There are very gifted speakers in this group whose abilities far surpass my own.
5. I would much rather meet with each of them one on one over coffee.
6. I would rather hear their thoughts and hearts than share my own.
The list goes on.
But again, the question surfaces above the sea of doubts – “Do you trust Me?”
Of course I trust You, Lord. It’s myself, my own abilities or lack thereof, that I’m having a hard time trusting.
“Then you’re right where I need you to be,” He seems to say with a smile.
And I consider this, pondering it until my brain catches up with my heart’s knowledge of this truth. It’s not about me at all. It’s about HIS words, HIS thoughts.
It’s about putting an out-loud voice to HIs silent whispers in my soul’s ear. Opening my mouth to let HIS words fall out. Uncontrived, simple truth that exists even without the help of my vocal cords.
Less of me. More of Him.
Sigh.
That feels so much better….
John 3:30 – He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.
2 Corinthians 12:9 – Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
Proverbs 3:5 – Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Exodus 4:10-12 – Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
