I am deliberately writing this right now.
I know that the details of our move interest very few people. That is not why I’m writing.
I know that I’m not the first one to go through the woes of limbo. That is not why I’m writing.
And I definitely know that no one likes a whiner. That isn’t why I’m writing either.
I’m writing about this season of our lives as a sort of journal. To keep myself in check. To keep track of what God is doing. To keep my focus where it needs to be. Not on what I can see right now, but on Jesus and the fact that His plans are better than mine.
I’m writing this because we got outbid on the house we loved. Everything about it seemed perfect for us. The house, the yard, the neighborhood, the walking distance to downtown. Everything.
We gave a full price offer. We felt great about it. But it wasn’t enough.
The seller came back and asked if we wanted to be part of a counter with the other buyer.
Tempting. But that’s exactly what it is. Tempting. We decided on our top number – the number we feel God impressed on both of us and neither one of us feels like we should supersede it. The temptation to go after it at all costs is, well….tempting. But that feels like manipulating what we already agreed on for what we want. Like we’re trying to tell God, “We trust You, but not enough to let go of something that has captured our hearts. We’re gonna MAKE this thing happen.” Somehow, that just doesn’t feel right.
I’ll be honest. I’m disappointed. Downright sad even. But I know what I know. And I know that when we honor God with obedience, He honors us right back. I don’t know how or when or what, but I’ve experienced it over and over again. God IS faithful.
I know that losing a house to the highest bidder is not the end of the world. But today it feels significant. So, I want to bring my focus back from the house of my dreams, to the face of my God.
And that’s why I’m writing today…
Well, this house obviously has mold. And horrible neighbors. And a monster in the attic. God is just protecting you. And a home even better will be yours.
That’s it! I forgot to check the attic!!!! NOW I know why God said no 🙂 Thanks for your encouragement, Jennie. God’s got good stuff up His big sleeves…
Haha, I love Jennie’s response. Monsters indeed when it’s not the right choice/timing! Someone once told me that when I obey God with total faith (not having anything on the horizon but hope), He bless us twice as much because we trusted him…not an easy task…I feel you Jana. All the way from WA 😉 You’ll do great with this move, love the honesty and the healthy attitude. <3
Thank you…:-) I trust a really big God 🙂
Good for you, sweet pea, though very, very tough to let go and resist “making it happen.” You are in His hands – – still! HUGS!
Thank you. Funny, because I knew when I wrote the post Lifetime Learning yesterday, that there was a very good chance that it meant I was going to face a new learning experience that day. And sure enough! What was it I said about getting better at letting go? Pop quiz is what yesterday was! Thanks for your hugs. And twice as many back to you, friend! xoxoxo