Jesus,

I sense my heart pacing back and forth

Not fearful, but able to see fear’s edge from here

A distant pounding in my ears

That threatens to alarm me

An all too familiar feeling

That wants to envelope me

To hold me captive to its worry and dread

Anxious thoughts at bay but too close

Taunting, teasing, flickering in front of me

I am uncertain of where this comes from

Never something that I would seek out

Instead something I want to run from

To hide from, to push away with all my  might

I have been down that dark road before

And hope never to cross its streets again

These thoughts are not from you

All that you offer is in stark contrast to what lurks in those corners

And so I sit at your feet

I listen to your voice

I look in your eyes

And I ask for your touch

Replace the shadows with your glorious light

Chase away fear with your perfect love

Unleash your hope on this undefined dread

Redeem sadness for your unmatched joy

And I will wait for you to come to me

And I will not wish this time away

I see how you use the ugly to help me experience greater beauty

You allow my heart to feel loneliness so that I can truly sense your presence

And when my thoughts are heavy, you show me the relief of throwing my burdens on you

Here I am

Ready

Watching

Waiting for you….