I can’t hear You.

Is it because You are choosing to be silent or because the noise inside and out has numbed my ears to Your “still, small voice”?

Has my tendency to run ahead like an excited child taken me out of the range of hearing my Father’s voice?

Maybe it’s because I’m doing all the talking and not giving You a chance to get a word in edgewise. I’ve turned dialogue into a rambling monologue of my own thoughts, plans and ideas and forgot to ask You about Yours.

I furiously try to write, hoping that Your inspiration will come as my fingers start moving across the keys.  But even then my hands seem paralyzed because my words mean nothing without first hearing them from You.

I want to hear You.

I long for that deep and tender voice that brings me Scripture and comfort and truth.  The only voice that draws me into that place of intimacy with my Creator and Friend. The voice that calls my name when I’ve gone astray.

I’m tired of listening to my own chatter.

I know what I have to do.

It’s time, again, to “be still and know”.  To sit in the quietness with You and just wait, simply resting in the fact that You are there.

Or rather, here.

I will listen with my eyes, focused on every word You’ve given in Scripture to guide, correct, comfort and teach me. I will lean into every truth and claim every promise as my own.

Today I will stop pining for inspiration and will be more than satisfied with Your presence.

We will be quiet together, just You and me.

Until the silence breaks….

Psalm 62:5 – For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.

Psalm 46:10 – Be still, and know that I am God.

Lamentations 3:24-26 – I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.