There is nothing easy about being states and oceans and cities away from three of your four kids.
I would love nothing more than to have all of my kids close enough to drop in for dinner or to spontaneously call each of them and say, “Hey! Can you meet me for coffee?”
But that’s not the way God’s laid it out for each of us right now.
Do I like it? No.
But does it make me savor every moment, every conversation, every ounce of time spent together? Absolutely!
Three weeks ago I got to see Blake in Denver. And though it wasn’t anywhere close to being enough, I let myself soak in the moments of that one-on-one time. His humor, his heart, his handsome face all right there in front of me, filling me in on all that’s going on behind those twinkly eyes.
A week and a half ago I was enjoying the rare privilege of getting to see Janay in Cambodia, and though everything about that experience was profoundly impactful, the piece that meant the most was time spent with my girl. To hear her tender heart, to see her life there and to witness firsthand the incredible things God is doing in and around her.
This weekend Brittany got to come up from L.A. Brendan, her hubby, had a full schedule of gigs and shows and her time was freed up for a weekend with us! Needless to say, this mama heart was once again thrilled. 🙂
Heart level sharing. Sisters giggling and crying together. Beautiful “girl time”. Coffee in our pajamas until noon. Conversations that I will treasure forever. She and Abby reminiscing about the past and dreaming about the future.
What a month. I’ve gotten to see every one of my kids and spend one on one time with them, listening to their hearts and being amazed at what God has done and continues to do in each one. Nothing more beautiful. Nothing.
So don’t mistake today’s tears with simple sadness. These tears shimmer with thankfulness. The lump in my throat is the joy too big to swallow. Grateful to Jesus for such beautiful and undeserved gifts.
I’ve had 30 days of wonderful…:-)
