(I am often bombarded by thoughts that I am not enough, not doing enough, not giving enough.  That I am forgetful and too often selfish.  If you ever struggle in the same way, this is for you.  We are not perfect, but we have access to a perfect God who will grow us and help us and strengthen us in our lack.  And for that I am thankful…)

I wrestle with wondering

Could I have done more?

Should I have done less?

Did I give from my core?

I struggle with pondering

Did I say too much?

Should I have kept silent

With the lives that I touch?

I grapple with knowing

I too often forget

And too late remember

What I haven’t done yet.

I battle with worrying

Did I offend?

Did my absent mind fail

And hurt a good friend?

Around and around

My endless thoughts go

Expecting new faux pas

To suddenly show

And then it occurs to me –

Of course I will fail

I am only human

Imperfect and frail.

Perfection is found

In one place alone

In the heart of my God

Who sits on the throne.

So I’ll lean in close

Right there in that spot

I’ll trust Who He is

And who I am not.

And as I lean in

I’ll pray that a part

Of His holiness rubs off

And sticks to my heart.

From my heart to mind

From my mind to my hands

So that all that I touch

Is where a piece of Him lands…

2 Corinthians 5:17 – Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

Philippians 3:13 – But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behindand straining toward what is ahead.