Today Mark moves to California.  The house is ready to go on the market.  And I’m beginning to freak out a little bit.

The chest pain is beginning to settle in and the familiar pit in my stomach is right on the doorstep ringing the bell.  Anxiety.

I know I don’t need to be anxious.  God’s got this move and all of its details in the palm of His very able hand.  I know that more than I know my own name.

Still, there are leaky holes in my human thinking that allow fear and doubt to creep in.  The “what-ifs” and “buts” mumbling in the background of my trying-to-focus mind.  It’s not as ugly as it could be yet, but it ain’t pretty, either.

So I will pray.  And for some very strange reason I will do projects that don’t need to be, and probably shouldn’t be, done.  Random activities that distract me from anxious thoughts and the physical symptoms that go with it.  These are my coping skills – prayer and busyness.

If for some strange reason I cross your mind in the next few weeks, please send up a prayer.  Peace would be nice.  But more than that pray with me that God would prepare my heart for the people He will put in my path in California.  For the people who buy this house and any interaction that we might have.  For wisdom and strength through the whole process.  And that I would once again fully trust the God who has never, ever left me to do ANYTHING on my own.  To sense His presence more than ever in Mark’s absence.

This is not a new scenario for me.  But every time is different with its own little twists and turns.  It’s what makes this whole thing such an adventure.  And I need to view even this part of the process as just that.  Another exciting journey to experience with the God who has called me to join Him in it.

And suddenly, the pit and the pain dissolve into peace…

Deuteronomy 31:6 – Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”