Epic fail.  I promised my kids I would never use that phrase again (sorry, kids), but that was the first phrase that came to mind when I thought about my day.

I should have expected it when I wrote about loving like Jesus this morning.  Remember how I said I wanted to look at each encounter and circumstance as an opportunity to do that?  Yeah, that was the plan.  Unfortunately, my heart kinda flopped.  Thus, the epic fail.

I found myself reacting instead of responding today.  Irritation, frustration, anxiety planted themselves in my gut.  And those things usually present themselves through being snippy and crying.  Instead of taking the people I encountered and the circumstances I faced as beautiful opportunities, I saw them as ugly difficulties and gave in to ugly emotions in return.  Yuck.  Big Yuck.

About halfway through one of my bad attitudes today, I realized what was happening.  Satan was doing his best to try to make me forget all that Jesus had shown me this morning.  And it was working.  Until that moment.  Then I decided that I needed to take all that pent up nastiness and ask Him to replace it with that love I longed to show instead.  And what do you know?  He did it.  ‘Cuz that was His plan all along.  It just took me a while to catch on…

Don’t know exactly why I’m sharing this except for accountability and to let you know that I’m in this life thing right alongside you.  And sometimes I don’t do it so well.  I trip.  I fall.  I fret.  I fail.  And every single time I am so thankful for forgiveness and second chances.  And big fat do-overs!  I needed all of that today and Jesus gave it to me gladly.

Tomorrow is a new day.  Lessons were learned today that will hopefully help me not make those same mistakes again.  At least maybe not for another 48 hours 🙂

Thanks for living and loving with me.  I’m so glad I’m not in this alone….:-)