Always have I known You

Forever have I tried

To be the loving child

To be the worthy bride

But for all my trying

A voice inside my head

Whispered that I’d fallen short

“No, my love,” You said.

So willingly I’d sacrifice

And work with all my might

To live and love as You would ask

To this time get it right

But still the voice, it echoed

And rang inside my head

That I had still not done enough

“No, my love,” You said.

Frustration grew, my hope grew dim

But still I gave my all

But every worthy effort

Was followed by a fall

The voice, now growing louder

Was pounding in my head

I’d tried and failed once again

“No, my love,” you said.

How could I ever be enough?

How could I ever win?

If all I’d done had missed the mark

How foolish had I been?

I threw myself down on the floor

Desperate to appease you

Blinding tears burned in my eyes

God, how can I please you?

And then, Great Lover of my soul,

You spoke once more these words

If only I had listened

Your truth I would have heard

For You had not said “No, my love”

Each time you spoke to me

But You were saying, “Know my love”

And suddenly I see

That I will never be enough

There’s nothing I can do

To earn the love You freely gave

When You gave me You.