My soul is at rest. I am seeing this a little more each day. There is a restful peace that my soul has settled into. Like when you find that perfect spot for your head on your favorite pillow and you can’t help but say, “aaaaaahhhhhhh…..” and then drift off to sleep and a sweet dream. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
As far as I can tell, this is happening for many reasons.
First, I think I’m a Coloradan. I really love it here. I love the beauty, the weather, the pace, the mountains, the trees, the culture, the people. I feel like I’ve been here all my life. It is “the-comfiest-sweatshirt-you-own” type fit. Not tight and restraining, but relaxed, cozy, warm and the exact thing you want to put on at the end of the day. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
Then there’s the friends. God has been crazy good in this provision. It’s as if all these wonderful women were just waiting for me to get here. The open arms have been endless. And not in the obligatory way, but as an old friend who is thrilled to see you again. And every time together is like eating your favorite delectable dessert that you eat slowly and savor each bite because you want it to last. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
And my new found “redefining” (staging and styling) business. To be able to create for people a place of refuge and rest and beauty is incredibly satisfying. To be able to find those “just right” pieces picked especially for one person – that is just way too much fun! There is an energy that happens when all your abilities have a chance to work together for the benefit of others. Kinda like swinging as high as you can and pumping so hard that you actually come up out of the seat of the swing a little bit and your tummy gets this funny little tickle in it and you can’t help but giggle. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
And my family is expanding. In less than two months, I will become a mother-in-law and will get the sheer joy of adding another amazing young man to the family. My mommy heart is full. As if four wonderful children were not enough, God is choosing to add to our clan. And my smile goes so deep that I can feel it down to my toes. You know the feeling…you’re reading the best book in the world, a book that has made you a huge fan of the writer. But you’re coming to the end of the chapter and you’re sad, because even though you knew that it couldn’t go on forever, you don’t want it to end. And then you find out that the next book in the series has just come out and will carry on the story with the old characters and some new ones that will add a new depth. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
There are so many wonderful little reasons why I think that my heart is experiencing such sweet contentment. There is no way that I could list them all. But there is something that holds each of those things, encompasses them. It’s my relationship with Jesus that has deepened with a more intimate love, greater understanding of His heart, and a more profound sense of dependence upon Him alone – not on my circumstances, my feelings, or others. Walking with Him minute by minute, hand in hand. Just enjoying Him, recognizing His voice and watching Him work in amazing ways EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! More than ever, He is my life. My reason for everything I do. For everything I hope for. For everything that inspires and motivates me. He has provided the things that have put my soul at rest. But He Himself if my rest. My Daddy on the couch that calls me to crawl up into His lap to cuddle and relax. And sitting on that couch next to me is a photo album of all that breathes life into me – my family, my friends, my home, my church, my job, my passions. And my Daddy pulls that big book up onto our laps and looks at the pictures with me. And I love the pictures, but He’s the one who took them and the one who holds them. And I love Him even more. Yeah, pretty much just like that….
